"Would you have sex with your best friend?"
"Ew, no. He is like brother. That's incest."
"Would you have sex with your best friend's boyfriend?"
"That is so wrong. I'll kick his balls if he dares to ask."
"Would you have sex with Keanu Reeve?"
"I can consider him, but he is a bit old. But Shayne Ward, now he is hot."
"If your best friend or his boyfriend is Shayne Ward, would you have sex with him?"
"..."
The only reason one gay man do not have sex with another man is because he is not sexually appealing. It's not because he is straight, or because he is a close friend, or that he is attached. The plain fact is that he does not stir your groin. There might be a slight difference between thinking about it and actually doing it, but that difference only matters if you are attached. Even so, why think so highly of yourself?
From an age of innocence to a time of flagrant debauchery; from finding love to losing hope, this is the life journey of a Chinese gay guy born in KL, Malaysia where he tries to make sense of his homosexuality, his life and the world around him.
28 December 2008
24 December 2008
Gluttony for Pain
I chanced upon a particular website that caters to a very specific group of sexual interest, that which was bondage/discipline. It was an eye opener. I have of course seen porns involving similar subjects but to see amateur pictures of people bounded, gagged and caged, it sends a different kind of testosterone rush into the body. Try as I to immerse myself into this subculture, I found myself unable to adjust to it after reading on what members wrote on their profile. From what I have gathered, sex is not the main object of their endeavor, contrary to the common believe that gays are sex maniac. It can be part of the whole bondage ritual, yet it is the bondage that matters to them. As one guy aptly put it, you can find sex everywhere else but this is not what he signed up for.
What amazed me was the amount of trust one puts in his partner, a trust even beyond those of lovers, called Master & Slave. A name that sounds so barbaric, yet widely accepted. Imagined yourself being bounded and gagged, being helpless and defenseless. It totally goes against a human's natural instinct to protect themselves. I do admit that there was a primordial satisfaction to see someone submit themselves in such manner, but what of those who were lying there bounded? Do there feel calm as those who submit themselves to God? Or does it fire up their libido? I was left puzzled. I guess one needs to go through the whole ritual in order to appreciate it. To feel the euphoria of constrained and control.
But as I venture deeper into the realm of bondage, I was introduced to the reality of fisting, which send shiver up and down my spine every time a profile showed an image of someone being fisted. An asshole, literally, I have experience with, but to have a frontal view of a human rectum through his fully opened anus, that image haunts me still. Anal sex is shining in a different light right now.
Oh, and there are actually quite a following in Malaysia for this when Asia is compared as a whole. A few are all geared up to send those willing on a trip of gluttony for pain and constrain.
What amazed me was the amount of trust one puts in his partner, a trust even beyond those of lovers, called Master & Slave. A name that sounds so barbaric, yet widely accepted. Imagined yourself being bounded and gagged, being helpless and defenseless. It totally goes against a human's natural instinct to protect themselves. I do admit that there was a primordial satisfaction to see someone submit themselves in such manner, but what of those who were lying there bounded? Do there feel calm as those who submit themselves to God? Or does it fire up their libido? I was left puzzled. I guess one needs to go through the whole ritual in order to appreciate it. To feel the euphoria of constrained and control.
But as I venture deeper into the realm of bondage, I was introduced to the reality of fisting, which send shiver up and down my spine every time a profile showed an image of someone being fisted. An asshole, literally, I have experience with, but to have a frontal view of a human rectum through his fully opened anus, that image haunts me still. Anal sex is shining in a different light right now.
Oh, and there are actually quite a following in Malaysia for this when Asia is compared as a whole. A few are all geared up to send those willing on a trip of gluttony for pain and constrain.
25 November 2008
Truth
Sometimes lying is inevitable even when there is no reason to lie, when being truthful doesn’t hurt anybody, yet we chose to lie. It simply provided the easiest way out of a situation, which we believe to be irrelevant to the other person.
Know that a circle, no matter geometry, professional or gay, has a well define boundary. You are bound to bump into the truth when someone lied to you in a circle, whether it’s intentional or not. There were times when I glimpse truth just by listening to what was said by others. Those moments of truth allows me to pierce through the veil and I often proud myself of being such perceptive until it hit me today that what goes around comes around. When you can see truth through another person, so can others pierce through your pretension through the same person.
Such person exist everywhere, we all have the potential of becoming one. It was never intentional but serendipity, well, they work charm. Like it or not, truths, like lies, are sometimes manipulated for personal gain.
Know that a circle, no matter geometry, professional or gay, has a well define boundary. You are bound to bump into the truth when someone lied to you in a circle, whether it’s intentional or not. There were times when I glimpse truth just by listening to what was said by others. Those moments of truth allows me to pierce through the veil and I often proud myself of being such perceptive until it hit me today that what goes around comes around. When you can see truth through another person, so can others pierce through your pretension through the same person.
Such person exist everywhere, we all have the potential of becoming one. It was never intentional but serendipity, well, they work charm. Like it or not, truths, like lies, are sometimes manipulated for personal gain.
09 November 2008
帅哥攻略
我们普遍上对帅哥都有一种歧视。我们都巴不得他们帅，都认为他们是肤浅的，爱慕虚荣的，不会珍惜爱他们的人。不能否认确实有些人仗着他们的帅气为所欲为，但笼统的归类帅哥对他们有点不公，因为不是每个帅哥都是这样的。人之初，性本善，世界没有这样黑暗。如果你每每遇到的帅哥都是这样的话，你应该考虑转移你的朋友圈子吧。
一日道，二曰天，三日地，四日将 ，五日法。胜负取决于你钩法的运用和你本身的心态。如果你自己不认为自己能的话，难道帅哥会投怀送抱？想的美。。。当然，有信心和成功是两马子的事，不能混为一谈，但至少没有输了个势。
02 November 2008
Maturity
A friend decides to start a relationship with someone in his early twenties. He meets the friend's physical requirements of a boyfriend and he seems to have a matured thinking, which is where all hell nearly break loose. It seems that maturity holds different meaning for people at different age. I don't think that people in their early twenties are childish or tend to throw tantrums, as I was in that age myself and would think that I was matured back then. But the truth is, people at different age looks at daily life differently. We have different level of importance, punctuality, cleanliness, politeness and the list go on. Even people in the same age group do not agreed upon a set of standards, how could cross-age people shares common understanding.
Granted, it is for the two to work things out between themselves, but then you realized that some things just cannot be accommodated. When you are at a certain age, we require the person that we are going to share our life with to act in a certain way, sometimes failing to realize that it is something accumulated through experience as we age, which our younger counterparts might lack. Or that we are merely in a different phase in life, we have done wild things and now cherish the quiet moments in life, but for them, life just started, who are we to rob them of this freedom?
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