Go Play Outside

Epigram : If mom finds out what her geeky son was playing outside, she would have probably give him an Xbox instead.

We fantasize about it, we see amateur porn with people doing it, yet most of us don't dare to try it. If you don't know what I'm writing about still, it's outdoor sex. We want it but we don't dare to do it, that's how the scene was around here, back then before the millennium, but with the Generation Z onward, I'm not so sure how true it remains.

To start off, we need to get the terminology right. Outdoor sex should refer to sex outside of the confinement of a building, so having fun on an apartment's balcony is not outdoor sex in the strictest sense, but nevertheless, it's a tiny step away from pleasure in nature. Also, having sex in a public toilet has been categorized under Toilet Sex, although Car Sex does borderline outdoor, especially if it's moving on the road.

For most people, the fear of being caught in the act is what stopping them from having outdoor sex, but at the same time, it is exactly the excitement of being caught that thrill people into having outdoor sex. It took a decade plus before I let myself out to play.

The maiden trip happened a few months back. I was invited by a buddy to join another two of his buddies on a short trip to a waterfall in Hulu Langat. He explicitly mentioned that we were all required to wear thong. So I wore the only pair of thong that I have in my drawer, which was a pair of GMW in bright neon green, a gift by a buddy who got it as a gift. It took us an hour plus to get there, and a good 15 minutes or so to travel up until we reach the deserted part of the waterfall. As we track up the waterfall, we sees tons of people picnicking by the side, what amazed us was not the crowd but the fact that families would go on a picnic during a working weekday.

Once we reached the top and made sure that nobody was around, we put down our belongings and stripped down naked, all the while looking over the horizon to make sure that the coast remains clear. We were worried of being caught, so we decided to always have someone taking guard.

One would think that the sight of three men in thong ready to have fun will surely bring on reaction, but a dip into the pool of running cold water will likely release the build up of muscle tension. At the end, some light oral sex was performed, while one was penetrated in the bushes by the waterfall. Personally, the combination of weariness, cold running water, tiny bugs flying around, sands sticking on the body, wild dogs in the woods barking, falling branches and lurking evil spirits from local folklore, all made the experience less enjoyable. Would I go for outdoor sex again? Definitely, but not at a waterfall, that's one location I'll be crossing off permanently in my book.

Throwback - Chat Room

I was added to a line chat group the other day of a particular gay sexual interest where there was bunch of cute guys on it. I was kicked out of the chat group for being inactive later but that was to be expected. During that few days where I was in the chat room, I felt like I was back to the time where chat rooms were the in thing, where people chat and try to hook up. That was also where I got most of my sexual encounters through. I guess it was a simpler time then, with plenty of libido running high in my body. Now that age caught up and testosterone dwindle, I look back at my pass knowing that I have no regret in the aspect of sexual satisfaction.

I'm sorry for your lost

My dear, my condolence to you for the passing of your dad. I know that it has been a rocky relationship between the two of you, but I also know of the strong sense of responsibility you have towards your family, you must feel very bad. But I know your will is strong, so though I silently feel your sadness, I know you will sail through this moment just as you conquered all the hurdles in life.

You only learn

I vow to love you more from now on
to fall in love with you madly as the seconds goes by
only to find that I learn to love too late
that this love will be in vain.

You only learn how to live when you can no longer live;

You only learn how to love when you can no longer love;

Why is it that we only learn when it is too late to learn?

Lost in a quandary

As much as I missed him and love him, as much as I want him back in my life, I know very well that it is not possible. I knew what I have done, and the pain I have caused him. Though he never blamed me, but I know very well how hard it hit him. Life will never be the same for us, no matter what direction in life we went. Such are my silly ways to make amends for the wrongs that I did, eventhough he is likely to care not what I am doing, I shall carry this burden with me, for it is my sin and mine alone to atone.