28 September 2016

Pot & Kettle

Browsing through Grindr, one would surely notice the numbers of MB quadrupled especially around KL area. It is widely acknowledged that the pics of MBs are greatly edited. Many have complaint that the actual person is far from what the picture depicts. But if you think about it, that's advertising in general. So why are people surprised? Do people really expect to pay mere hundred for someone with the perfect face, a chiseled body, a rock hard tool and exemplary service that is to die for?

Someone I once met criticise that it is unethical of these MBs to market themselves in such pretense, and went on and on about never being that cheap as to get a call boy. I kept quiet and listen to his grumbling, but deep down, a tiny voice retorts sarcastically, "Hello, not like you look like your picture. That pic you showed me is at an angle and likely to be a decade old when you have seen better days. I'm sure you are not as young as you said you are. If you are, good lord, have you not heard of skin care, dude,  at least pop some vitamins. Or drink water if you can't afford vitamins. And you expect to hook up, oh gosh, why why why, why I never trust my own instinct. Damn, am I that desperate? Fuck, is he still yapping about his sexual experience? Oh, no, did he just touch me and left his hand on my arm. I should wiggle away. Why the fuck did I agree to meet at his place? Ok ok, let's just close my eyes and be done with this."

The pot calling the kettle black, and wished that I could knock myself senseless first, then back to my senses again, with both pot and kettle.

We never learn, do we?

16 September 2016

秋意

明月夜,人团圆,
独守寒处孤枕眠。
纵思量,泪两行,
凄声回荡哭断肠。

24 August 2016

遗弃

分手的原因
在关系决裂的当下
变得无关重要
毕竟一切已成往事
你离开是事实
我被遗弃也是
我俩的缠绵只留待追忆
我不会怪罪你
也不会迁怒自己
那是你的选择
我爱你
所以我尊重你的抉择
我的感慨只为抚平我的思绪
不为挽回你
不为挽回我们

20 August 2016

坦诚

你自己也很清楚
要维持一段感情
最重要的
是两人之间的互相信任。
你自己也曾因察觉对方的谎言
而感到伤心和愤怒。
既然你深知爱情的成败因素
那你为何还有所隐瞒?
你应该知道
你那似不经意的省略
是那么处心积虑的隐瞒。
无论你如何经营一段感情
你的努力最终只会付诸流水
因为不是对方把你的付出当成理所当然
而是你为自己最初的背叛付出了代价
最终那感情告吹。

24 July 2016

Of loving, again.

The best way to get over a pass relationship is to be involve in a new relationship, but the difficult part is, can one open their heart to another when it was battered and incomplete. Only through time would the heart heals and the scar faded, only then can the person love again.