02 January 2017

本心

这边厢因一部电影且说释怀了
另一边却因一首歌而漠然流泪
一个人就算领悟了谎言的真谛
以文字和笑颜瞒骗了全世界
乃至于自欺欺人
但是
在那不设防的午夜里
眼角的泪
心房的痛
却恰恰推翻自己的坚强
我只能坚信
时间是最好的疗药
虽然也明了

也是最苦涩的。
这份痛
渗透入灵魂
无止尽

01 January 2017

摆渡人

释怀了
原来我的到来只不过是为摆渡你
送你到彼岸
想想这未尝不是最好的解脱说辞
我不会说我失去的是我爱的人而你失去的是爱你的人
因为你从来没失去过我
我依然故我
我依然在这里等待你
等待或摆渡其实没有差别
不过是一厢情愿的说法
毕竟我要说服的人不是你
而是我自己
我来了
我累了
我好了
我走了
我了了

28 December 2016

Our Song

You and me by You Me

You and me were always with each other
Before we knew the others was ever there
You and me we belong together
Just like a breath needs the air
I told you if you called I would come runnin'
Across the highs the lows and the in between
You and me we've got two minds that think as one
And our hearts march to the same beat
They say everything it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you fall apart
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark,
Oh that's you me

You and me we're searching' for the same light
Desperate for a cure to this disease
Well some days are better than others,
But I fear no thing as long as you're with me
They say everything' it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you fall apart
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark

And they say, everything it happens for a reason
You can be flawed enough but perfect for a person
Someone who will be there for you when you start to fall apart,
Guiding your direction when you're riding through the dark

Oh that's you and me
That's you and me

27 December 2016

Everlasting Grief

I asked myself, if I have move in with you. If I have stopped you from meeting with your ex, would we still be together? Maybe I should have been more determine with you, fighting for your return to my side. Maybe I should just accept the cruel fact that I shall remain alone for the rest of my life. So much questions, yet it shall all remain unresolved.

I wanted to hate you so much for raising me up to heaven and making me fall into the abyssal hell that I am in now. But I can't for I love you still. I can only hate myself for loving you so much. I can only hate myself for allowing myself to love again. It took me a year to let go of my previous relationship. That gruesome one year where I cry myself to sleep every night. Now I have to live through that again.

Maybe it is karma. Maybe it is punishment long destined for me. I know not anything else but succumb to this everlasting grief and loneliness.

26 December 2016

心力绞碎后
得到的尽然是
谢谢你,你是我最好的朋友
心彻底碎了