看透

心中起伏如浪潮，原来我的心没有离开过你的身边，说看透只是欺骗自己，我痛苦的泪落向何处？

看透不过是我告诉身边人的话，
在我的心中我清楚知道我所执迷的背影，
敛藏着我对你的亏欠。
但是你已远去，
留下的痕迹已看不见轮廓，
甜美的记忆总是消逝的最快，
我让心隐隐作痛，
只为了留住我对你的思念。

痛

对你的思念，我不会斩，也不会忘……我选择痛！让我心的刺痛来记住那种感觉，让我无时无刻都感受这种刺痛，只有这样，我才会一直记住，一直……不忘。

《求魔》

Vow

I encounter millions of bodies in my life; of these millions, I may desire some hundreds; but of these hundreds, I love only one.
Roland Barthes, A Lover's Discourse: Fragments

It takes being ill to remind me of how much I missed you. Just not too long ago, I thought that the feeling has finally retreat into the background as a low murmur, but then it screams and now it echos loudly. I'm glad that the feeling returns; reminds me of where I vow to place my love.