From an age of innocence to a time of flagrant debauchery; from finding love to losing hope, this is the life journey of a Chinese gay guy born in KL, Malaysia where he tries to make sense of his homosexuality, his life and the world around him.
话说当年。。。
A和B分手是因为C的介入；
B在离开A后便和C走在一起；
C在当时其实已经和D交往多年；
D原来是A的其中一名炮友；
只是ABCD当时都不知道大家原来这么亲密。
时过境迁。。。
A现在单身；
B离开了C后远走他乡认识了E目前生活美满；
C和D搬入新家就住在A楼下；
D不时还会带着C去到A的家轰趴。
其实A和C都心知对方做了什么，
C因发现A和D搞在一起所以才介入AB；
A因发现C导致他和B分手所以和D更亲密；
D带着C上了A而A也当着C面前上了D。
现在A上过C而C也上过A两人的关系变好了，
A和C从情敌变炮友，
从炮友变朋友，
这就是同志爱？
男男间的爱、欲、恨
全缠绵於男友，朋友和炮友间。
这个情义结看似错综复杂
却实乃三位一体；
春心萌动基情酿，
激情荡漾忌讳闯，
爱欲交集畸情葬。
缘起缘灭缘终尽，
4个人的感情纠纷因谁而生因谁而灭，
终究难以探知孰是孰非，
皆因始作俑者可能根本不在其中。
I was confronted, again.
Somehow these confrontation thingy is happening once too often, as if I'm an easy pick. But I guess being older means I'm wiser and know how to deal with confrontation without getting pissed. Either that or I'm becoming senile, thus easy target. Grrr...
Again, I was confronted awhile back. Someone who invited me to join him and his buddy for threesome confronted me, demanding answers to some questions. One, am I into his friend more then I am into him? Two, am I not click with him? OK, so it's basically the same question. Regardless, these are tricky questions especially when you want to preserve a good relationship with the other person, coz you never know when the next invitation to a raunchy sexcapade might come from.
I mean, do you honestly expect a truthful answer? Instead of asking me such awkward questions, why not ask yourself, who is the better looking, the more desirable one between you and him. Wouldn't the answer be clear without me being blunt?
In my defence, I have totally forgotten how the friend looks. I would not be able to recognise him even if he is standing before me. But I do admit that the friend is definitely much more desirable then the host. But, that doesn't mean I do not know how to play the game properly. There was a second then, that I felt offended because I was accused of not knowing the proper things to do when invited to someone's home to fuck with two guys. It was a shocking revelation for I think I might have achieve the Great Promiscuousnes.
Thus the Law of Three(some) goes, if you have a good looking guy to sex with, keep him to yourself unless you are equally good looking, and the third guy you invited over has such difficulty in choosing which to please that he ends up a slave for both.
To achieve Great Promiscuousnes, one must master the many disciplines that governs the integrity of this state. Among which is the Law of Three(some), widely accepted as the major sign of promiscuousnes. For once you have two men at once, sex would never be the same.
Threesome, to engage in sexual activity with two individuals simultaneously. A wild fantasy for the uninitiated, but for many gay, it is likely something they have had a go at. I had mine at the age of 18, right after my first encounter with a man that was considerably disappointing. The funny thing was, I don't quite recall the threesome, instead whatever memory I have of the session was the twosome in the shower room. Well, that's another entry at a different time.
So unless one is willing to give threesome another try, one would probably keep to one man per copulation. Rightly so as even the most seasoned of players don't get enjoyable threesome that often. We can have better satisfaction with just one man. It was probably hope that with quantity, quality should increase by proportion too.
The consensus on having a good threesome is getting three guys that can click with the other two, which enjoys similar sexual activities. For some reason, it's hard to come by. Thus, the search for the elusive three ways orgasm continues. But I think we have side track on this search. Is it really that hard to get three men that is in to each other to sex together? I think not. Instead I would think that it's crucial to gather three men that can click 'at the exact same moment for the same duration' for a successful threesome. The keyword here is timing. If the three men can't be high and horny at the same time, for the same duration the threesome is likely to turn into a twosome where one wanders off to rest while the other two continues. Still, it is not all for naught, at least 5-10 minutes of threeways action was squeezed out of it. An attempt worthy of the title 'not bad'.
The gay scene in KL is small, smaller still for gay men with huge appetite for sex. Throw in superficial discrimination, fetishes of all sorts and some sex drugs, the circle become even smaller still. I have since established the degree of separation between one fuck to another, after meticulously comparing data with a fellow buddy... I mean fellow researcher. The findings were staggering.
If you live in KL just as I, but our path never cross, it's likely that we will remain strangers until the end, yet we will still have common friends. We may even copulated the same man, or men, but statistically, you and I will remain ignorant of each other's presence or role in the other's life, forever. So concluded the study of my sundry sex life.
After more than a decade and a half, I honestly do not remember how many men I've played with. But then again, after such long years, many details would have been forgotten unless visual cue was given, preferably the same picture that I have seen before, because wrinkles and body fat can change a person's appearance dramatically. You can't really blame me for not recognising you after seeing your latest profile picture, since our last shag was several years ago and in between this time we have not communicate nor visibly active on social media. Except for a few that I have manage to keep in contact with throughout the years, I have basically lost contact with all the men I sexed with. Surprisingly unsurprising, it's very common and most people go through the same tribulation in achieving the Great Promiscuous. Those that remembers, well, you obviously haven't had enough variants in your sex life. Good for you for being loyal, but in case your lack of variance in sex life is because of some physical attribution imposed by superficial discrimination, well, you can always pay for it. Really, why pay for gym or slimming packages that don't work, when all you need is a fuck that is just one message away. It doesn't matter whether I condoned human trafficking or not, the trade is active nonetheless.
Oh wait, I have drifted away from the initial motive of this post. Remember the Kelvin & Terry post (..of Jealous & Possesive Boyfriend) where I was accused of fucking someone I don't even know, it turns out, I do know that person and have fucked him years ago. All matters considered, I am still wrongly accused, but knowing that I have actually fucked the guy, makes me feel so much more at ease. Twisted. I know.