呆坐房内
眼望荧光
释怀的旋律在耳边。
喃喃自语
心系远方
几分落寞几分愁。
From an age of innocence to a time of flagrant debauchery; from finding love to losing hope, this is the life journey of a Chinese gay guy born in KL, Malaysia where he tries to make sense of his homosexuality, his life and the world around him.
25 May 2013
22 May 2013
无言的结局
你离开的多么突然走的完全无声无息
你说你已经想清楚了是时候我们分手
我向你乞求一个坦诚相对的最后机会
你却和我说你已经没任何话要对我讲
这句话让我的心在当下彻底的粉碎了
在一起的时光最终换来的是无言以对
我和自己说那是因为你怕自己会后悔
但这只是我安慰自己的一个说法而已
相爱后剩下无言是分手最残酷的理由
你说你已经想清楚了是时候我们分手
我向你乞求一个坦诚相对的最后机会
你却和我说你已经没任何话要对我讲
这句话让我的心在当下彻底的粉碎了
在一起的时光最终换来的是无言以对
我和自己说那是因为你怕自己会后悔
但这只是我安慰自己的一个说法而已
相爱后剩下无言是分手最残酷的理由
21 May 2013
The Love I Meant to Say
Sorry, that's the word I want to sing to you
The other word is stay
To hear the love I meant to say
The other word is stay
To hear the love I meant to say
19 May 2013
Break a cherry
Do you remember the first time you get down and dirty with another man? I'm sure you do. Mine, well, it wasn't the most pleasant of experience. But I did redeem myself with a threesome on my second endeavor, so I guess I was even with myself.
My first sexual experience started right after I was over 18, for some reason that's the age when I allow myself to have a taste of men. Probably quite young for my age group, for I know people who have their first taste of man much later then me. But I also know that kids nowadays started way younger, too young for their own good I guess. Because by the age of 18, they have done it all.
Would I advice the younger generation to hold their first time for the person they love? Well... sex is over rated, but I have to admit, making love feels much better then having sex. Cherish it if you happen to chance upon it, else rampant sex can merely satisfy our primal urge, not that tingling sensation of love and lust collides.
My first sexual experience started right after I was over 18, for some reason that's the age when I allow myself to have a taste of men. Probably quite young for my age group, for I know people who have their first taste of man much later then me. But I also know that kids nowadays started way younger, too young for their own good I guess. Because by the age of 18, they have done it all.
Would I advice the younger generation to hold their first time for the person they love? Well... sex is over rated, but I have to admit, making love feels much better then having sex. Cherish it if you happen to chance upon it, else rampant sex can merely satisfy our primal urge, not that tingling sensation of love and lust collides.
18 May 2013
Betrayal
Betrayal is one of the worst pain ever a man can endure regardless of whether you are betrayed by a colleague, a friend, a lover, a family member or a country man. That someone abused the trust you gave them, it is as if your body has been violated, granted there are people who fantasize about being raped, but betrayal is at a level beyond many of us.
I realize that people who were betrayed always blame the person who betrayed them. I guess it is only human that we divert the pain we feel inside into anger that we could channel outside. We never stop and wonder why we were betrayed. One might think it's pathetic wanting to give a valid reason to justify our betrayal, but consider this, being trusting is one thing, being ignorant is another.
I realize that people who were betrayed always blame the person who betrayed them. I guess it is only human that we divert the pain we feel inside into anger that we could channel outside. We never stop and wonder why we were betrayed. One might think it's pathetic wanting to give a valid reason to justify our betrayal, but consider this, being trusting is one thing, being ignorant is another.
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