My Day

Lying on the bed that we sleep on together

Holding to the pillow that you preferred

Trying frantically to feel the warmth you left behind

But only the coldness of the night remains

Where my silent tears felt warm against my shivering heart

Looking at the stranger through the mirror we bought

The reflection of myself screams loneliness

I straighten the jacket that you gave me

And walked out into the world feeling bear

Hiding my tearing eyes with long bangs and sunglasses

I shall bear the pain of this 

By wearing a ring to remind myself

Of what I lost and what I shall never get

Of what little I can hold on to

Till the day I shall no longer wake up to

凭歌寄意... 续

众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处

原来那首想点给他的歌一直都在自己的ipod里

奈何是首日文歌

就算一切尽在不言中

心意还是无法传达出去

人生有时就是这么无奈

もう君以外愛せない 今ここに君と約束するよ 

但你却听不见

凭歌寄意

很多时候，歌，唱出了我们的心情
唱出了我们的悲伤与喜悦
我们凭歌寄意
让对方了解我们的心情
尤其在感情受到挫折时
歌，能让我们发泄我们当下的心情

曾几何时
我对歌有一种奢望
希望有人点一首歌给我
当中包含他对我的情感
但是这动人的旋律似乎和我不咬弦
永远藏在虚无缥缈中

但是现在却发现
歌，实在太多了
那一首贴切的歌不一定会在当下出现
但出现后昔日的情感可能不复回
漫无目标的搜索旅程中
时间渐渐淡化了忧伤
而那一首撼动人心的歌
也再无法激起心中的涟漪

空白格

你说命理老师讲你在33岁之前的感情都是轰轰烈烈，但却不会长久。
今年你32岁。我们在一起一年多，感情也算是轰轰烈烈。

虽然我们都清楚大家在一起的时间已经被设下一个期限
却万万没想到原来未来的在一起的时间只剩下一年。
但是奈何命运总是喜欢作弄人
最不希望发生的事情竟然发生了

我不知道你为何不愿意让我和你一同面对未来
是因为你还爱着我吗？
还是因为你对我有恨呢？
我无法看透你的想法
因为在你面前我已经失去了理性的思考。

我知道在多的道歉也无法弥补我对你造成的伤害
虽然你从来没有责怪我
但是我知道你心里是不甘心的
我觉得自己亏欠了你
所以我决定让这份内疚在我心中酝酿
让它成为我永远背负的枷锁。

可能你根本不希罕
可能你还会讥笑我的愚昧自负
但这却是我仅剩的尊严
它将会是我余生情感的寄托

很多东西真的只有在失去之后才变得珍贵
生命是如此
爱情也是如此
失去之后剩下的只有无限的遗憾

听着蔡健雅的空白格
歌词有一句“分开或许是选择但它也可能是我们的缘分”
我想，这可能真的就是我们的缘分

Handle with Care

No no, don't be silly dear, when I said 'open', I don't mean open to everybody regardless of shapes and sizes. What I actually meant was 'open to the type that I am interested in'. Why not be straight forward you say? I thought that was widely understood. Anyhow, do you really need me to shove it in such brutal manner? Although I know you want it in a way, but sadly that's not the way I'm heading. What I'm trying to say is, life is fair, everybody is given choice. True, some people have better options while others have to resort begging, but that's how life goes. Life is not fair. Oh wait, I think I told you life is fair just now. Oh well, life get tanned sometimes. Don't ask me why. I don't have a say in how life works, I'm just sharing with you what little I understand about life. Am sure you understand what I meant, it's not exactly rocket science or needing you to sit under a tree or crucified to accomplish. Anyway, got to go, screwing time. Adios and good luck.