The Days After 5th of May

On the 5th of May, I exercise my right as a citizen of Malaysia, only to discover along with the rest of the country, how easily removed the indelible ink was. Then on the same night, the excitement of possibly overturning the dictatorship turned into sadness when it seems that dirty politic tricks was used. The next two days was filled with further disappointment  both to the country and to the people of the country. The racist statements, the rumors of violence and the irrational thinking of many people.

What does the Chinese want? If you still have to ask, it shows how little you know about the Chinese after 50 plus odd years.

一生所爱

情人别后 永远再不来 (消散的情缘)
无言独坐 放眼尘世外 (愿来日再续)

如果相比整个世界，吉隆坡应该是很小。但是对我来说，它还是无比的大。至少它可以大到阻隔我俩相见。谁说世界上最痛苦的是我就站在你面前但你却不知道我爱你？能够天天见面，虽然爱无法言语，至少那份痛苦还能慰籍那颗可望爱的心。明明可以看得见，但却不能碰面。明明可以听见，但是必须失连。明明很关心，但又不能慰问。不是不想，而是不能。旁人无法了解，也无须任何人去了解。这种孤独、痛苦难以形容。

Come what may

Never know I could feel like this, like I've never seen the sky before.
Want to vanish inside your kiss, every day I love you more and more.
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing? Telling me to give you everything.
Seasons may change, winter to spring but I love you until the end of time.

Until the end of time, when spring turns into eternal winter night
Everything that is mine can be forsaked, yet I yearn to hear you sing
A song of love that reminds me of your kiss that has long since left
Under a strange sky that I once knew, the feeling of lost echos

Come what may, I have accepted my fate but I'll love you till my dying day,
A day that doesn't seem so far away,
Come what may, I have nothing to lose when I lost you that day,
A day that feels like yesterday.

Just give me a reason

A reason is not the reason, a reason can be an excuse, but the reason a truth, sometimes we offer a reason simply because people can't handle the truth.

When life goes bad to worse

Indeed it's bad, terrible to say the least, but c'est la vie, even if we don't want to accept the cruel truth in life, it will still be shove down us regardless. It's not easy to make peace with it, probably not ever, all we can do is to cope with it. Focus on the better things in life, that's been suggested, nonetheless it is hard. Harder still when you have to deal with it alone. Some pain cannot be shared, some pain are better left endured by yourself. Why? Silly pride, that's probably why. In the cold dark night, when silence creeps in, we are always left alone to reflect upon ourselves. But thinking about what went wrong will do no right, it will only drive the pain deeper, until a shattered heart be broken even further. That's when you realized, when life goes bad to worse, worse can go to worst.